Movement

Met with my mental health nurse yesterday over the fact that despite being reffered for CBT therapy over a year ago, the team that look after it claim never to have had such a referral.
He will make a new referral and recommended that I took a sleeping pill during the day to get some of the sleep that I had missed over the previous 4 days.
Oddly, I took the pill at about 11.45am & didnt sleep at all...
Robert got home, sue got home, we all went to golf, called into Sainsbury's for some lemsip as Sue has a cold and then as Robert eat before we went out, Sue & I had dinner about 8pm.
I took my normal quota of pills (something the nurse & I agreed on was that taking more pills was not an answer) I dropped another Temazepam and went to bed at 10.
By 10.30, I was out of it!!!!
Only to be woken by Sue at 5.30am when she went to get a drink, but I went back off ASAP and didnt wake til about 10.30am.
Although feeling a bit better for having the sleep, I am still low, but I do think I'm starting to pull out the other side.
I havent felt this low since February when I tried to off myself, and it looks like my swings are not as low as they were, just as the highs are also not as high.

All I can hope now is that I get my CBT therapy kicked off and it works.

Perhaps the future is brighter than I have thought it for a long time...