I really am at a low point. I have had some real energy boosts over the last few weeks, but looking back they have been an hour or 2 long, & accompanied by a crash a few hours later. This morning, after a night of Trazadone, Zopiclone & Gabapentin, I only just woke long enough to wake our youngest for school before I went back to sleep until 10am.
This is embarrassing for me, to get up so late in the day.
I lay there for a while, seriously thinking that I'd be better off dead, before I finally hauled myself downstairs.
I hope this is just one of those lows that will just fuck off eventually, but I am getting the feeling that this is going on a bit too long.
I have the good patches for a few hours, but the smallest thing is tipping me over the edge at times.
I can sit here weeping like a baby & then laughing my nuts off 5 minutes later at something stupid.
Here I am at gone 10.30, pills taken & they are not kicking in yet, so I cant get to sleep...
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