here we go

Here I am, 7 months after being diagnosed as Bi-Polar, one suicide attempt and a whole load of Lithium later deciding to write about how I am dealing with it and how I see my family & friends look like dealing with it.

Now, anyone who does read this will be morbidly interested in the suicide attempt.

After things got too much about a month ago, I decided to take all of my pain meds for a broken ankle in one go & wait for sleep to come & take me away.

Just a small point, I didnt take enough Tramacet to either kill me or ruin my liver or kidneys, but did take enough to sleep for 36 hours straight.

Looking back now with a month of hind sight, I'm glad I didnt get it right.

Suicide is probably the most selfish thing a person can do. It hurts everyone you have ever loved or cared about.

As it stands, I am off to stay with a mate for a couple of days so I can have a break from my family. I have started to get panic attacks in crowds, which is no good as a rugby fan!

I am looking at bloging on a weekly basis.

I also have a very good friend who is currently in hospital with BP after being sectioned.

Wont name names here, but my thoughts are with you and yours.